There was a time, after death, when he wanted to reject anything and everything Shiro, in a desperate bid for own self that maybe never was.
That's... not how it works, is it? He still loves all of Voltron, each and every one of those men, women, and lions.
If some mystical self of his was to be found in rejecting all of it... then Hiroki doesn't want that self. That self would remind him too much of---
(Your own parents saw you were worthless. And I should've abandoned you, just like I did, he remembers hearing himself say, and the shock running through his very spirit at that. Who was the person saying that??? He hated that person, and he had renewed his desperate, worthless struggle against that person, back then. He had hated that person with all his heart, the person who'd try to make his loved ones bleed - in body and in spirit.
When he's realised that person was Haggar, everything made so much sense, he almost felt better...
He hates the fact that being what he is, he can, if anyone asked, say what things Honerva would tell Ziggy if she came and decided to keep no pretense. He hates those things and hopes he will never say them.)
But fortunately, there are no witches here. He, whoever that is, is alone with Ziggy, the rest of Atlas, and the White.
He almost chokes at Ziggy's words.
"All mine?"
He grabs Ziggy by the wrists and pushes him towards the wall.
"Of course I accept all of you. I love you. Ziggy, I love you."
He shoves him against the wall.
Then he blushes, as he wonders, audibly here in own spirit mindscape, if Ziggy's up for rough treatment right now. He can let go...
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Date: 2020-09-13 06:10 am (UTC)Huh.
There was a time, after death, when he wanted to reject anything and everything Shiro, in a desperate bid for own self that maybe never was.
That's... not how it works, is it? He still loves all of Voltron, each and every one of those men, women, and lions.
If some mystical self of his was to be found in rejecting all of it... then Hiroki doesn't want that self. That self would remind him too much of---
(Your own parents saw you were worthless. And I should've abandoned you, just like I did, he remembers hearing himself say, and the shock running through his very spirit at that. Who was the person saying that??? He hated that person, and he had renewed his desperate, worthless struggle against that person, back then. He had hated that person with all his heart, the person who'd try to make his loved ones bleed - in body and in spirit.
When he's realised that person was Haggar, everything made so much sense, he almost felt better...
He hates the fact that being what he is, he can, if anyone asked, say what things Honerva would tell Ziggy if she came and decided to keep no pretense. He hates those things and hopes he will never say them.)
But fortunately, there are no witches here. He, whoever that is, is alone with Ziggy, the rest of Atlas, and the White.
He almost chokes at Ziggy's words.
"All mine?"
He grabs Ziggy by the wrists and pushes him towards the wall.
"Of course I accept all of you. I love you. Ziggy, I love you."
He shoves him against the wall.
Then he blushes, as he wonders, audibly here in own spirit mindscape, if Ziggy's up for rough treatment right now. He can let go...