"You know you're one of the most important people to me."
"Are you kidding? You make my life better every day. You're my--"
He trails off.
"Listen, you're an amazing person. And without you, I'd probably, right now, stay in the Atlas. Because why ever would I leave there?"
"But you - you make me believe I could have a life with you. Maybe it's a pipe dream. Maybe I won't exist tomorrow. And that would make you sad, so sometimes I wonder, if I should somehow make you hate me, so that you can live without me. And if I were a good person, perhaps I'd do that. But I don't want that. I don't want to do that, ever. Because I love you too much, and I'm too happy just-- just being with you. Sorry. I'm sorry."
And he suddenly smiles.
"But you see, I'm just too selfish. I'm so sorry. But I love you, and I'm happy with you, and it wouldn't matter if you stabbed me right now, or anything, you see? Do you understand?"
"And of course you're a person. See, people can only ever truly love another person. Not symbols or what have you. That'd be just a fling or whatever. You're not a fling to me. You're-- you're Ziggy, who's the most wonderful person in the world. You see?"
"And I'm sorry. I didn't think -- I just thought all my feelings are plainly visible to you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
He's still hurting over what Ziggy's said, a moment ago, doubting him, but he's also genuinely sorry if Ziggy felt that... all that...
and is ready to keep apologising, from the bottom of his hurt. Even if he's still feeling like Ziggy's just stabbed him or something.
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Date: 2020-08-05 08:13 pm (UTC)"You know you're one of the most important people to me."
"Are you kidding? You make my life better every day. You're my--"
He trails off.
"Listen, you're an amazing person. And without you, I'd probably, right now, stay in the Atlas. Because why ever would I leave there?"
"But you - you make me believe I could have a life with you. Maybe it's a pipe dream. Maybe I won't exist tomorrow. And that would make you sad, so sometimes I wonder, if I should somehow make you hate me, so that you can live without me. And if I were a good person, perhaps I'd do that. But I don't want that. I don't want to do that, ever. Because I love you too much, and I'm too happy just-- just being with you. Sorry. I'm sorry."
And he suddenly smiles.
"But you see, I'm just too selfish. I'm so sorry. But I love you, and I'm happy with you, and it wouldn't matter if you stabbed me right now, or anything, you see? Do you understand?"
"And of course you're a person. See, people can only ever truly love another person. Not symbols or what have you. That'd be just a fling or whatever. You're not a fling to me. You're-- you're Ziggy, who's the most wonderful person in the world. You see?"
"And I'm sorry. I didn't think -- I just thought all my feelings are plainly visible to you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
He's still hurting over what Ziggy's said, a moment ago, doubting him, but he's also genuinely sorry if Ziggy felt that... all that...
and is ready to keep apologising, from the bottom of his hurt. Even if he's still feeling like Ziggy's just stabbed him or something.