"Bullshit!" Ziggy snarls. "You don't even let me do the things you say are ok. You just keep moving the lines. I don't want sex.. ok then I will just kiss you and hold you but now you push that away too."
Ziggy feels on the verge of crying and screaming. It's been a long time since he was this riled up. Not since Hiroki was always shoving him away like a yo-yo. This felt the same. "And all you do is tell me you want to be close to me and are attracted and want me to feel good.. but all you do is slap me in the fucking hands like I'm a bad child."
"About you? No, nothing about your presence feels gross to me except that..." Ziggy was starting to pull his knees up again.
His voice goes quiet. "You're treating me like everyone else. You want me for whatever you want from me but I'm not supposed to want anything for myself. Anything I need is wrong and dirty. It feels like you're using me and that feels gross."
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Date: 2020-11-21 07:07 pm (UTC)Ziggy feels on the verge of crying and screaming. It's been a long time since he was this riled up. Not since Hiroki was always shoving him away like a yo-yo. This felt the same. "And all you do is tell me you want to be close to me and are attracted and want me to feel good.. but all you do is slap me in the fucking hands like I'm a bad child."
"About you? No, nothing about your presence feels gross to me except that..." Ziggy was starting to pull his knees up again.
His voice goes quiet. "You're treating me like everyone else. You want me for whatever you want from me but I'm not supposed to want anything for myself. Anything I need is wrong and dirty. It feels like you're using me and that feels gross."