Ziggy crushes thier spirits together, his own filtering into Hiroki's bonding them. He wasn't going to walk away from this the same as he walked in. They were bonding, or Ziggy was bonding to Hiroki. There were no words for it, more intimate than sex.
And the Anthean just abandons himself to his lover. It's something beyond the physical control that Hiroki had so recently, no this is control of his spirit. A giving over of everything.
The contacts are itchy. His voice comes but it isn't attached to anything. It merely is there, quiet and compassionate and absolutely, adoringly in love with this spirit.
You've always been alive and unique to me. It was the truth because Ziggy saw so much more than others.
Then, suddenly all he can do is beg for intimacy, closeness, sex. It feels like if he doesn't have it he might just die.
I know. I feel it even when you don't know. I can always feel it... across the Nexus...maybe into your own world. I feel you always. Ziggy can't think any more in words. Everything comes now in desires and abstract images. Some are mundane. Lazy days together and dinner out. Others are more intimate and with bow bear his spirit is, things he might never say are there in faint flickers. The desire to have a family with Hiroki and the pain of realizing it is impossible for so many reasons. The way Ziggy yearns for Hiroki to be immortal, to spend forever with him. It's all there if Hiroki listens.
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Date: 2020-09-15 09:18 am (UTC)And the Anthean just abandons himself to his lover. It's something beyond the physical control that Hiroki had so recently, no this is control of his spirit. A giving over of everything.
The contacts are itchy. His voice comes but it isn't attached to anything. It merely is there, quiet and compassionate and absolutely, adoringly in love with this spirit.
You've always been alive and unique to me. It was the truth because Ziggy saw so much more than others.
Then, suddenly all he can do is beg for intimacy, closeness, sex. It feels like if he doesn't have it he might just die.
I know. I feel it even when you don't know. I can always feel it... across the Nexus...maybe into your own world. I feel you always. Ziggy can't think any more in words. Everything comes now in desires and abstract images. Some are mundane. Lazy days together and dinner out. Others are more intimate and with bow bear his spirit is, things he might never say are there in faint flickers. The desire to have a family with Hiroki and the pain of realizing it is impossible for so many reasons. The way Ziggy yearns for Hiroki to be immortal, to spend forever with him. It's all there if Hiroki listens.